In April 2019, a user named “Barbara Todish” left a comment (scroll down on the blog post to see comment) on my blog post “Link between Lucid Dreaming and Automatic Writing” about how she wanted her lucid dreams to be transcribed. I called her; and, spoke to her in detail. Later, I found out that she also wanted some of her written essays and articles to be published. Despite my heavy schedule, I agreed to volunteer for her and get her work published. After a bit more communication, I found out that she had a certain type of cancer as well.
Now let me tell you the full story about what actually happened. I lost one of my cousins several years ago due to cancer. I cried a lot while talking to him over the phone. He was in the bed and medicated. I remember feeling very shaken when he told me that he experienced pain due to cancer and associated treatments. I felt helpless throughout all this ordeal; and, then he died one day. You know, I heard a voice once concerning his household more than 20 years ago while we were still living in Pakistan and had not moved to Canada.
I heard a voice in my head, “I like him a lot. Tell me more about yourself.” Then I addressed him and started talking to him. This is when I heard another voice, “In this household, you have four cousins not five”. Source: Connecting With My Dead Cousin.
So eventually I learned that this voice told the truth! I did lose him while the other brothers were still alive.
In July 2019, I had a bizarre experience. Some time before Barbara Todish called me to tell me about her cancer, a friend of mine from UK emailed me the link to one of Nashiha Pervin’s video where she briefly discussed the benefits of Black Seed oil. I documented this entire incident to show the timeline in blog post “Prayer Or Telepathy: Connecting Two Seemingly Unconnected Dots“. In this particular post, I hid Barbara’s email and name since I was hoping that she will survive this ordeal.
After the call, I thought back to how my online friend from UK had sent me a link to Nashiha Pervin’s YouTube channel; and, how one of her videos discuss benefits of Black Seed. Then, I googled for info online and found an article that recommends use of Black Seed to treat cancer. Here is this article, “Benefits of black seed oil“. I emailed this article to the American friend who was suffering from cancer at 4:26 pm. Source: Prayer Or Telepathy: Connecting Two Seemingly Unconnected Dots.
So to help her out, I not only sent her an article about Black Seed but also mailed her Black Seed pills. It is funny how time wrap ran just before Barbara Todish told me about her cancer! Read “Prayer Or Telepathy: Connecting Two Seemingly Unconnected Dots” blog post to get the full story.
While writing this post, I mentioned how I couldn’t have saved my younger cousin from cancer!
Now, here is something that happened way before this incidence. Some years ago, I lost one of my younger cousins due to a particular kind of cancer. I promised him when I talked to him before he died that I will find out how to treat his cancer. That promise was never completed on time because God wanted to take his soul away─Prophet Mohammad (peace be upon him) said that Black Seed can cure everything except death. Source: Prayer Or Telepathy: Connecting Two Seemingly Unconnected Dots.
The following two images show the email I sent to Barbara after our telephone conversation on July 14 2019.
Fortunately, I was able to submit her work to an American publisher. I was also able to transcribe her dreams; but, I couldn’t finish the transcription because she had to clarify some of the handwritten words. I texted Barbara about what was going on a couple of times; and, then I just waited for her. I waited for her reply for some months. Meanwhile, I waited for the publisher to make a decision. Finally, in Jan 2021, I received a reply back. Unfortunately, her work did not get published.
In May 2020, I sent another detailed message to Barbara through her Facebook account. I received a reply from one of her friends—a rather kind and caring soul—in Jan 2021. He said that Barbara passed away in Mar 2020.
Now here is the interesting part. In April 2020, I wrote blog post Connecting With My Dead Cousin, which discussed a dream I had received about my cousins who lost their younger brother to cancer and how I didn’t see the spirit of this dead individual in this dream. I thought that meant that my soul was at rest about this situation right now!
I wrote this post today because I had a dream about my cousins. I saw only three cousins from that household. They were sitting with my siblings and playing card games. I was in the other room and I actually came to talk to them. They were all very excited to see me. I checked out my cousins and was able to figure out faces of two of them. But, I could not fully see the face of my third cousin. I also wondered where my fourth and fifth (dead cousin) were!
I woke up and realized that my dead cousin’s soul was signalling to me that he is okay in his other world, which is why he is not joining us for games. I feel I have successfully reached a closure. Source: Connecting With My Dead Cousin.
Scary thing is that Barbara passed away in Mar 2020 (see her orbituary); I received the above-mentioned dream in or around Apr 2020; and, I learned that Barbara was not with us anymore in Jan 2021.
I see all this as a message from God!
Next I wanted to clarify if it was safe for me to proceed with attempting to publish her work. And, I was advised that since the author is dead and the author has not given me a written “Power of Attorney”, it is not advisable to proceed. I felt extremely sad after hearing this because I had invested lots of effort in completing the assigned tasks; and, I was also battling a medical condition while I was volunteering for Barbara Todish. I felt compelled to believe that Barbara will stay alive despite all this because she was very optimistic and clear about how she intended to use her energy to heal herself. I really wanted to save her written works; and, then I had another dream months before she actually contacted me where I saw myself swimming to save somebody’s work. I wrote about this in blog post “The Swimmer Who Protected Important Written Material“; this dream helped me focus on my task despite my bad health.
Thus, I decided to discuss the entire incidence here and teach people about Barbara and her works—I made the difficult choice of revealing snapshots of some of my private communication.
Barbara Todish was a Professor, a Motivational Speaker, a Writer, and a Comedian. I never actually read all of her work in detail; but, I did agree with some of her thoughts and opinions. I was particularly impressed with how thoroughly she described identity and its interactions with the society. The saddest thing that I learned about her was that she worked as a prostitute for like 3 months. This is mentioned in the article by CHUO FM 89.1 about The Train’s episode with Barbara Todish; article title is “Banned from academia and from her professional associations for her honesty about the human condition“. The sweetest things about her were that she received lucid dreams just like me; she hated Donald Trump (listen to her poem about Trump) ; and she wanted to be a Professor regardless of how she was being banned from acquiring such a job due to her background as a prostitute. Listen to her podcast “Barbara Todish: UnbelievablePodcast Episode3“. Starting from instance 16:57 she mentions how Donald Trump is not creative enough because he believes in stereotypes; starting from instance 21:10 she states that she has been provoked all her life; and, then at instances 23:23 and 24:00 she begins discussing her “enemies”.
Shockingly, I have been observing from Canada how this American woman is getting abused; and, how her “enemies” made sure to ban her or mistreat her every now and then. So here is a note to Barbara’s “enemies”: “In Islam, we are taught that people plan things; but God, the best planner, plans too”. My second message is to everyone: “Women are at stake here. I believe that Barbara’s death signifies the neglect society offers to women one way or another.”
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