Why I Don’t Listen to Eminem

I have tried listening to Eminem’s songs; but, I have hated the experience so much so that I have completely banned Eminem from my life.

I remember listening to just a couple of songs and then feeling bad about what was being said. I recollect that I started investigating lyrics of some of the songs in details and felt very uncomfortable after reading them. I clearly recall that I felt nausea and headaches after listening to some of his songs including “Love The Way You Lie” and “Not Afraid”. My experiences have always defined whether I will accept something or someone in my life or not. I banned Eminem a long while ago and right now my life is “Eminem-Free”. I am proud of myself!

Today, I found another article on the web. Jackson Katz’s article “8 Reasons Eminem’s Popularity is a Disaster for Women” shares how this artist is dangerous for women and even for gays and lesbians. I can see why my head kept splitting with pain when I listened to his words. I feel his work is very dangerous; and, I feel that men who listen to his songs are misogynistic in nature. Nowadays, even some Muslims are attached to this person’s words. As a woman and as a Muslim woman, I feel worried about my safety given the type of environment Eminem is gradually creating.

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Why Am I Writing A Poem About Kashmir

One of my grandmothers have Kashmiri background. Her name was Iqbal, which means “Power“. I still remember her. She was a beautiful and gentle woman. She loved me a lot although she talked less because she was very old. Unfortunately, she passed away several years ago.

My grandmother shared her name with one of the founders of Pakistan, Allama Iqbal. Allama Iqbal is a very famous poet of Kashmiri background. I read some of his poems when I was a teenager. I fell in love with “Shikwa” and “Jiwab-e-Shikwa“.

My exposure to Kashmir is pretty limited for several reasons; but, destiny has created a path that I must walk. This path was created after I said a genuine prayer where I asked God to help me fight discrimination. Later, too many things happened that made sure that I ended up walking into the Human Rights industry. Read the full story about this special prayer here ‘Another “Silver Bullet” Prayer Came True‘.

When I decided to continue writing my poems while focusing only on Human Rights related issues, I felt compelled to work on a poem about Kashmir first. I started calling this poem, “my first poem related to Human Rights” because although I have written a couple of other Human Rights related poems before, I have worked on them without reading too much and while working on other types of poems like Romance Poems; however, now that I am writing while focusing “only on Human Rights related issues”, I am being really thorough and reading a lot of stuff before composing these works. So this poem about Kashmir is going to be the very first poem from this set of poems, which are going to be—hopefully—finalized in 2020. This decision was made after much thinking although it was just a gut feeling that made me decide.

I have finished a lot of work for this poem: taken lots of notes; composed some of my thoughts; and, attended webinars too. I say its destiny because ever since this prayer came true, things are happening that are ensuring that I end up writing Human Rights related poems. For instance, check out this webinar by “International Human Rights Commission“. I was just an attendee but the host, H.E Ambassador Malik Nadeem Abid, made sure to let me talk during the webinar. You know that I was thinking of leaving early before the end of this event; but, I actually decided to stay. Then I ended up being on camera. You can check out the video “72 Years of Indian Occupation of Kashmir“. I appear at the very end, at 2:30:24 (-5:43)

I will share my poem about Kashmir here. Make sure to read it.

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Listening to Silence

When I was a kid, I used to rest on my bed in the night and listen to the silence around me. Darkness used to envelope me as I would tune into this mysterious and hypnotic sound that encased me. I have discussed this phenomenon before in my blog post “Listening To The Night“.

In the night, the music of my mind and body becomes markedly unusual. I quietly listen to the changing sounds of the night and enjoy how it’s inexplicable tunes seep through me undeterred. I allow myself to drift from one thought to another without capturing anything in writing. Source: “Listening To The Night“.

I started receiving lucid dreams early onwards as a child. This is why I could easily tell that there was a definite pattern and rhythm in the sound of silence that I felt captivated by in the night. I had time today to think about this so I researched this online. According to article “What Is Pink Noise and How Does It Compare with Other Sonic Hues?” there are all sorts of sounds like Pink Noise, White Noise, Brown Noise, and Black Noise. This article shares that the Sound of Silence is a Black Noise. So I was right! Sound of Silence is definitely a type of noise and it definitely has some sort of pattern.

Furthermore, this article taught me a new term, the Pink Noise, for something that I have started practicing routinely after gaining insight about how to become lucid during sleep. Remember how I discussed “Hypnagogic Hallucinations” before in my post “Bodyguarding: Using Video Game Mode To Figure Things Out About India“. The lucid dream that I am discussing here is a historic lucid dream since it discusses a death threat to a Human Rights Activist who works on issues related to India and then it also shows what happens to Amnesty International due to India’s Modi-led government. See the following blog posts below for details:

Bodyguarding: Using Video Game Mode To Figure Things Out About India

Another Dream Symbol Came True: Amnesty International and India

So what do I listen to during these “Hypnagogic Hallucinations”? I can sense deep things like heartbeats, laughter, pain, and sweat when these sensations get activated. So if I have seen someone through a video, I can sense that person’s heartbeat and sweat during my hypnagogic hallucinations. Making me activate this mode is like Aladdin (the subject of my thoughts) walking into the Cave of Wonders (the cosmos that I can enter afterwards). According to article “What Is Pink Noise and How Does It Compare with Other Sonic Hues?” Sound of Heartbeat is considered Pink Noise. Seriously, when I listen to someone’s heartbeat just before falling asleep, my entire body relaxes a lot. Perhaps, this is somehow connected to the fact that infants are tuned into their mother’s heartbeat. I wonder what exactly I listened to when I was in my mom’s wombs—my mom has high levels of Photographic Memory.

So through experiences with my lucid self, I learned that I relax substantially after listening to the silence or activating desirable “Hypnagogic Hallucinations”. According to article “Sound of silence increasingly rare as noise pollution rises“. Noise pollution is a big deal nowadays. When you are walking on the streets, you see so many people wearing headphones. People are not what they used to be! They have forgotten so many natural things; thus, their health is getting hit. Even I am left struggling with noise pollution to some extent. Truth is that I have always known that listening to silence heals me somehow; but, this article from 2017 offers the same conclusion. I can do this because my body and mind are both designed to heal things—I even release some sort of calming energy from my hands that heal the pain of menstruation among other things.

I strongly suggest that you try listening to sound of silence and also spend time thinking back to someone (including your inspirations) before falling asleep. Your health will improve significantly after you perform these activities regularly.

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Tango Between Personal and Societal Issues

A while ago, I read Amira Elghawaby’s Twitter post where she shared a video of a female child feeding toilet water to three male children; Amira commented that this is how Patriarchy feels like to her. I replied back to this tweet by sharing the video Shop Snatch where the character Nasreen who is married to a Misogynist and Patriarchal man chooses not to act when his shop is being robbed. Before I proceed any further, I must share a personal story. Some years ago, I was planning to study Cellular and Molecular Biology; but, I left due to ongoing discrimination that I perceived towards my gender. Now here is how I know that those who were discriminating against my gender caused a big loss to everyone! I receive dreams that later come true. In 2015, I dreamt of arrival of a plague of some sort; COVID19 arrived after some years. If I were sitting in the lab in 2015, I would have investigated what the word “plague” is referring to; and, then I would have started some relevant research. And, the results would have been perfect because by year 2015, my inner self would have grown up to that extent where it would have felt compelled to fully investigate whatever my intuition would have pointed to. Read my blog post “Dented Thinking Of A Genius.

In all the three cases above, we see one common factor as issues like Discrimination, Patriarchy, and Misogyny are being discussed. We learn that the brain cannot really manage challenging societal issues. According to the article, “Our World Outsmarts Us“, human brain is not designed to properly handle complex societal issues. I think societal issues can outwit even the smartest because 1) these are more interwoven; and, 2) these are designed to remove emotional support, which is required more than intelligence in order to survive in a group setting.

This finding shifts us to a broader concept. Some of the current leaders and citizens have become obsessed with pointing fingers at people to shift attention away from the complicated societal issues that continue to exist while they are around. This is another reason why Islam makes more sense to me! For example, there is no real prison system in Islam. My studies about Islam have shown me that the prisoners have lots of rights while they live inside the prison. These include but are not limited to gaining and providing education and marrying someone of one’s choice. This is how Islam managed to spread so rapidly throughout East and West. Real Islam can literally transform very hard core criminals into really protective and productive citizens. Islam is not what some countries and leaders are trying to paint for us. For example, you will hear from some people that some Muslims are even more dangerous now given what was done to them after 9/11. This is again a big lie! Islam actually asks people to slowly desert places where survival is not possible. It does not pose attacking and avenging oneself as the first alternative. However, I won’t be surprised if some victims of abuse reacted in a negative manner since it is normal to do so given how scattered the human brain becomes after abuse. Why do you think that 50% of the people who are jailed in Canadian prisons are just victims of abuse themselves? Read article “Half of Canada’s prisoners were abused as children, McMaster study suggests.  I am 100% sure that there are lots of people in there who have been left to suffer in these modern cages simply because they committed a minor crime, the type the victim of the crime would forgive but the authorities would not.

As some leaders and citizens allow for imprisonment of those who are abused and willingly keep them in inhumane conditions, they are attempting to break mankind’s ability to safely move forward in the future. I mean humans react to the systems that they are made to face. If these individuals really want to help us and themselves, then they must break through the available oppressive systems. Everyone else who is just watching ongoing acts of oppression or who are stuck in a situation that exists due to circumstances should remind themselves to fight back with whatever is left intact.

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Something Is Wrong With The Sun

Before you read this, know two incredible facts about me: 1) I am a lucid dreamer; and, 2) I have high levels of the stereodepth vision. If you feel dumbfounded after reading this, know that you are not alone. Even I feel like this when I gaze at the world through my eyes! But, all this can’t be helped simply because I am designed to perform feats. I am a genius so I can easily think and create in a dented manner. However, I have learned over time how not to feel much fear while doing this.

As I write this, I feel spooked of myself! I have lived my entire life with people who are not like me; and, so I have learned to be a bit like them. I know the reason why I did not release these pictures earlier is because I had learned to navigate like the rest, which is something that does not play in anyone’s favor. I mean my mental ideas are conceived to save people from bad things; so if I am compelled to walk the same path as others, then who am I going to save. Furthermore, its very difficult for me to function along with someperhaps mostCanadians simply because I find them very racist!

Here is the incredible story behind these pics and post. Several years ago, I was driving around in the city when I looked up and saw the sun. My keen eyes allowed me to view the sun and the sunlight in depth. Suddenly, I knew that something was wrong with the sun and sunlight. I was not looking at the usual scene! The sun seemed brighter and more serene at the same time. The sunbeams were longer and more spread across the sky. It felt like looking at a spectacular solar phenomenon of some sort! I was gripped with terrible fear at this sight, then for several days, and then for some years. I knew that something had gone wrong! Then, there was my inner voice that compelled me to continue with my thoughts for some reason. I did not knew how to tell people about what was going on; so I created this picture by using a software. I think I posted this on my older blog, which I had to delete to make this new blog.

As you view the rest of the post, know that the Date Created is flipped with the Date Modified because I moved my files around—this answer was provided by the Microsoft Community. The picture “The New Sun (Cells and Energy)” was created on April 2, 2011.

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The New Sun (Cells and Energy)

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Date of creation of “The New Sun (Cells and Energy)”: Apr 2, 2011.

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Process of Creation (Cells and Energy)

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Date of creation for the pic “Process of Creation (Cells and Energy)”: Jan 5, 2014.

According to article, “What’s wrong with the sun?“, which was published in 2010, the sunspots have been vanishing for the past two years. This article tells us that some researchers believe that the sun is shrinking, which is causing massive climate change.

So what I saw in 2011 and then later drew it is what the researchers are pointing towards; i.e. a noticeable change in the Sun. So my eyes are letting me do this heavy job of detecting things that don’t make much sense with grand ease.

Do you wanna have more fun with this news? Check out article, “Our Sun Is Lighter Than Ever, And The Problem Is Getting Worse”, which was published in 2018. Now compare the first picture found in this article with the pic I made in 2011. They are similar right! Now refer to the third and fourth images of my blog post.  On Jan 4, 2014, I reviewed some of the draft images that were edited to create the final image (first pic) and created a collage (third image of this post titled “Process of Creation ‘Cells and Energy'”) by using three relevant ones. Did I somehow gauge the similarity between my picture (The New Sun “Cells and Energy”) that was made in 2011 and the image shared in the article Our Sun Is Lighter Than Ever, And The Problem Is Getting Worse”, which was published in 2018; and, then decided to make the image “Process of Creation (Cells and Energy)”. Its almost like I am saying to others, “No! Really! I made this picture; and, I did not download it from anywhere.”

Our Sun contains 99.8% of the Solar System’s mass, but gets lighter every day. When enough time goes by, its changes will render Earth uninhabitable. Source: “Our Sun Is Lighter Than Ever, And The Problem Is Getting Worse”

If you don’t believe how dented I can actually become, refer to the blog post, “Prediction Within A Prediction: Use Of Mind’s Peripheral Vision” to read how I predicted the coming of the Coronavirus.

Since I am a Muslim, I will leave a reminder here for everyone. In the Quran, we are warned that sun will join the moon (near the Earth) on the Day of the Judgement; see article, “Sun & Moon Join on Day of Judgment“.

Well! The Day of Judgement is not here yet; so the scientific communities from all across the world must join hands to figure out what should be done about these changes that are taking place in the Sun.

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How Individualism Is Hurting Us

I have been thinking about how some Canadians behave in a manner that I consider abhorrent. This is because they are very individualistic in nature. Even some of the people who have decided to work or live in Canada and who were originally from holistic societies become individualistic in the long run. That’s an example of taking the path of least resistance, which is the theme of the cartoon movie Wall-E.

According to Rob Whitley’s article, “Is an Increase in Individualism Damaging Our Mental Health” individualism causes issues like divorce, loneliness, low self esteem, depression, PTSD and suicide. The author points out that social media is also the cause of alienation and relevant issues like depression and loneliness. He further asserts that individualism is causing people to define success and failure as personal attributesthese I think have a lot to do with society since emotional support is the key to improving performance. Once I posted an article about the Rich Poor Gap on Twitter while discussing how this is hurting our chances of survival. Pretty soon, a user replied back saying that there are so many positive stories out there and that I need to focus on these instead. I started laughing when I read her comment because I have observed many dedicated and skilled individuals who are stuck in the cycle of poverty. She made me sound like an idiot by hinting that there is something wrong with me because I am not focusing on the positiveknow that this kind of sentiment works well only through cold methods of communication such as social media.

I believe that Individualism makes you assume things. More you focus on the positive stories only because doing so makes you feel stronger and confident, more you are going to assume things about those who are not performing well. To break through Individualism and its harmful effects, you need to listen to the bad stories and see why they are being created in the first place. Once a Canadian class fellow of mine who did not knew me and who had zero idea about my background sat next to me; and, within a couple of minutes, he decided to mock me by calling me a racist. He did not even knew that racism is not taught in Islam; he did not knew that I write poetry to fight racism; since he likes assuming, he would never bother to find out that I have also attempted to confront a foreign writer who had racist views online. I had no idea what he was saying; and, so I ended up leaving his group permanently. So his rushed comments are symbolic of how rushed the Canadian environment really is. Owing to individualism, everyone here is hurrying; and, they are not thinking properly.

Individualism can drastically harm your emotional and physical health through isolation, neglect, intimidation, sexual abuse, financial abuse, and verbal abuse. My experience within the individualistic Canadian society has taught me that all of this is possible; and, it is very clear for me to see how this is happening since I am originally from a holistic (Pakistani) culture. For example, I am finding that communicating with Canadians is difficult inside the workplaces because they abuse people a lot here. According to World Population Review, suicide rate in America is 15.3, in Canada is 12.5, and in Pakistani is 2.9. Really?

Mental health issues are on the rise…suicides are more frequent in developed, individualistic countries. The close bond between families, friends and one’s local community…almost disappeared. Source: Our Individualistic Society is Causing Serious Mental Health Issues.

Thus, it is very obvious that individualism is harming all of us. However, a lot of us won’t pay attention to the fact that individualism is the reason why we are all dying to have a peaceful world. According to Andrew Orton’s article, “Interfaith Dialogue: Seven Key Questions for Theory, Policy, and Practice” interfaith dialogue requires that one must interact with individuals of different communities instead of just living next to each other without communicating properly (this phenomenon is called “parallel lives”). Interfaith dialogue plays a critical part in promoting world peace by forming more cohesive societies. According to Andrew Sobel’s article, “Eight Ways to Improve Your Empathy” your empathy improves as you expose yourself to new environments and allow yourself to be challenged. Obviously, individualism is doing the exact opposite! Most definitely, you cannot achieve world peace or great health just by attending meetups or hanging out with someone who has individualistic values.

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Why Canadians Ask “Where Are You From?”

A very odd questions that I usually encounter from strangers and peers is, “Where are you from?” I have been thinking about why they ask this question because I am finding that some Canadians are not nice people although they profess that they are. Actually, some of them are doing really weird things including workplace abuse and rape while camouflaging their bad behaviour with nice behaviour. I have experienced workplace abuse and rape while living in Canada, which is how I had an opportunity to observe the behaviour of the abusers. In one instance, an abuser harassed me at workplace; and, then he followed up with a friendly hello while offering me a candy. Anyways, I stopped working at that office because my complaint was not formally reviewed and considered due to their gang dynamics and ignorance of relevant policies.

I used to answer the question, “Where are you from?” because I thought that the Canadians were curious people and it is okay to reply back properly. However, all that changed after two particular events.

Incidence 1: Some years ago, I visited America and lived with Americans for some while. I was utterly shocked when I saw an American therapist dressed in her traditional ethnic clothes as she worked from her clinic. My first question was, “Do other Americans consider visiting her now that she is wearing her traditional clothes?” She told me that the Americans she has been interacting with are nice and accepting people. I felt a stab through my heart when I realized that it is in Canada, a country that prides itself to be multicultural, that I have to make sure no one sees me in my traditional clothing. I came across more Americans when I visited the mall and attended an event. I found them to be nice people. Then it hit me that Canadians complain a lot about Americans. Is it true? Are Americans really as bad as some of these Canadians are desperately trying to portray? Now that Trump has been elected and has been in office for some while, some things about America have changed for the worst.

Incidence 2: I came across a very talented American professor who reviewed my work and commended me rather beautifully. I was super-shocked for many years at what he said because I have not heard this kind of praise from most of the extremely privileged and well-educated Canadians who belong to the academic setting—this excludes a couple of well-known poets who are not from the academic setting and who have commended me well on my performances and works. Reality is that I find the environment offered by Canadian academic institutions very oppressive—sure there is a small number of professors and teachers who will always stand against mistreatment of students. Saying all this, I still remember being told by a Biology professor, “But this is just one paper”, when I asked him what he really thought about my Research Thesis—this happened at University of Toronto. He attempted to marginalize me instead of encouraging me. People like him are the reason why I am not pursuing a PhD in Sciences. And, I think today the world is facing a freaky crisis like Coronavirus because geniuses like me are constantly being abused by Canadians and thus they are forced to leave their studies. Read Canada’s Undiscovered Geniuses.

Today, I am thinking back to all of this. Canada is actually dangerously racist. My experience tells me that they love harming coloured people inside academic institutions and workplaces. As I thought more and more about everything, this answer formed and kept banging against my head until I decided to write this post.

Premise 1: Canada is an extremely racist country. These two article state that Canadians are more racist than Americans. Read “Study Proves Canada Is Actually More Racist Than The United States” and Canada’s race problem? It’s even worse than America’s.

Premise 2: Canadians play it nice while interacting; but, this attitude is compelling some people to become insane or feel very distraught and neglected. Read Why Canadian “Niceness” Is Unhealthy.

Conclusion: Therefore, it is clear to me that most Canadians ask, “Where you are from?” because they are assuming things or deciding whom to torture. Once, I was warned by a friend that certain people are talking at my back about my headscarf—which I have removed in self defense so that it may become easier for me to manage ongoing discrimination—and that I should avoid talking to them. Basically, I was asked not to be nice to them when the entire office was playing it nice.

Okay! Canada sounds very bizarre right!

A lot of Canadians do not stop probing if you hint to them that you are not interested in answering this question. Instead, they ask the same question differently, “We are Canadians. It helps to know where you are really from? Everyone here is from somewhere. You know what I mean.” See how confusing this sounds! I strongly advice everyone to ignore such questions as these are not serious inquiries but are meant to eventually exclude you. Very frankly, so many Canadians ask me this really personal question; but, I have been invited to tea parties only by a couple of individuals who demonstrated a genuine interest in me, which showed when they said or indirectly implied, “I don’t care about your skin or religion. Let us just hang out!”

I know that if you are a Canadian, then you will definitely doubt me after completing this reading. Doubting someone is a Canadian thing to do! Actually, misconstruing someone sane as insane and someone competent as lousy is also something very Canadian. So here are two more relevant articles. Read “Where Are You From” Is Not An Innocent Question To Ask Canadians “ and “Contradictions At The Heart Of Canada’s Multiculturalism“.

The more a person is “different” from white society, the more likely the average Canadian would want them to stay away. Source: “Contradictions At The Heart Of Canada’s Multiculturalism“.

So from here onwards, I will communicate differently with Canadian UNLESS I really like the person who is talking to me.

Rule 1: I will not answer any questions regarding my ethnic background. Truth is that I am a Canadian citizen; but, I feel that Canadians do not want to accept the truth that a person who is not White or is somehow “different from white society” can be a Canadian.

Rule 2: I will doubt every generous and nice move a Canadian makes until I figure out whether he/she is genuine or a covert racist.

There you have it! Life makes more sense now.

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My Vision Of Torture of Kashmiris By Indians

On Sep 2, 2019 I wrote the blog post “How To Get Out Of Nightmares” in which I discussed my dreams about the rape and torture of Kashmiri women.

In one dream, I saw some men surrounding a woman; then they put a really large sword-like thing in her mouth; and, then they took it out and then they put it in again. The female victim was unable to even scream due to fear. Source: How To Get Out Of Nightmares

Just an hour ago, American journalist CJ Werleman tweeted a video by “Indian American Muslim Council” where Indian women discuss how the Hindutvu thugs who were holding swords attacked themthis occurred inside Delhi.

I was a bit shocked when I read that Delhi’s Hindutvu thugs were holding swords because it matched the description I found in my lucid dream. I strongly feel that there is something very severe going on inside Kashmir and that the world needs to open their eyes to the crisis that is enfolding there. Perhaps, what is happening inside Kashmir is far worse than what is taking place inside Delhi because Kashmir was placed under a severe and lengthy lockdown (article 1, article 2).

Here are some more relevant articles about Kashmir. I feel that there is less and disproportionate coverage of what is going on inside this region.

Kashmir lockdown: Stories of torture and arbitrary arrests” by Akash Bisht; Published on Sep 2019

‘Don’t beat us, just shoot us’: Kashmiris allege violent army crackdown” by Sameer Hashmi; Published on Aug 2019

Kashmiris Call for Investigation of Torture Accusations Against India” by Sameer Yasir and Kai Schultz; Published on Jul 2019

Why the World Ignores India’s Violence in Kashmir” by CJ Werleman; Published on Sep 2017

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Why Canadian “Niceness” Is Unhealthy

I do not want to live in Canada or marry a Canadian anymore simply because I am a nice person who is also an ENFP—I feel that it is very easy for some Canadians to ridicule me even if my personality type is ENFP, which is the Champion of Myers Briggs Personality Types. As an ENFP, I tend to derive lots of warmth from the people around me; and, I can be considered a workforce because I am social, peaceful, analytical, and creative. Unfortunately, I have learned over time that I am definitely not the kind of nice person Canadians are used to. For example, there are many instances where I would bluntly state something instead of stating it in a reserved and nice manner, which is what I am doing in this post. I have lived in Canada for around 20 years; and, I have found out that if you have come across someone bad at workplace or in life, then you are mostly on your own. This is because most Canadians are good at deserting people; and, they are super-shy about admitting this truth. However, it is also true that if you are in a good group, you will find friends who will flee from the abusive employer with you. I have spent years building a healthy relationship with two women who left me when I changed the city. We used to hang out and chat a lot; but, I have not received even one phone call from any of these ladies ever since I moved away. We were pretty close; so when this happened, I started feeling that I could not trust them anymore. Only my best friend bothered to call me and stay in touch with me. It is due to her emotional support that I have two more close friends now in this new foreign place.

I found this very funny and odd so God gave me an answer. In the new city, I came across a White male who told me about how his Canadian friends left him too. This is when it occurred to me that that is how Canadians are in general.

Even after talking to him, I did not think about all this for like a year or so. Today, I was calmly thinking about a lucid dream I recently had when I thought back to all of this. I googled online “Canadians desert each other” and “Canadians are not good friends” when I ended up finding the article, “Canadians are nice and polite. Maybe that’s why it’s so hard to make friends here”.

Evelyn Sommers, a Toronto psychologist, knows it firsthand…she decries excessive niceness as damaging because it blocks the expression of true feelings. Romance gone awry. Abusive relationships allowed to fester. Niceness, she writes, can produce passivity. Source: “Canadians are nice and polite. Maybe that’s why it’s so hard to make friends here”.

If you read this above-mentioned article, you will notice that the Canadians always tell each other to go to a meetup to connect. I have tried meetups too! I did not had much luck there either because people are mostly there to hang out; and, they may choose to connect if they want to. But, then again, I find it absurd to spend my money just to socialize or to keep socializing with someone in a group setting. Other meetups have agendas and you cannot really talk there with anyone. According to the article, “Science tells us how long it takes an adult to make a new friend“, it takes 50 hours before someone becomes a casual friend; 90 hours before someone decides to become a real friend; and, 200 hours before someone becomes a close friend. But then you cannot really complete even 50 hours through meetups! You will get fed up of driving to a given location; connecting with someone in front of everyone else; and/or spending your money on getting admission ticket and/or food. So when a Canadian tells you to make friends through meetups, please read into how unrealistically they are thinking and forcing you to think as well. Sometimes you will find people who would want to just share their numbers with you; but, most of these people will not pick up when you need them. And when they do pick up, it’s usually about work or “on the surface” issues that real friends do not discuss. Then there is always a STRONG possibility that someone’s usual nice mask will somehow rip off to reveal a racist or sexist person since Canada is a very racist and sexist country. Believe me! I am speaking from experience! Even some colored people I have come across who tend to act like “nice Canadians” have offered me severe issues including neglect and emotional and psychological abuse. Read one of my experiences, “Covert Form of Islamophobia is Very Much Canadian in Nature“. Another very cruel thing about Canadians that I have learned is “Anonymity”. Most Canadians tend to stay so anonymous that when one of the friends, neighbors, or colleagues get in trouble, they do not know how to properly react or rather they have designed themselves not to react, i.e. they are too passive. I find this very unattractive!

For around 20 years while living in Canada, I have found out that living here is extremely butchering physically, emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. Not offering genuine bonds is just one small thing! Most Canadians hide their racism and arrogance under their “Nice Person” mask. This is how they get away with torturing people who thus fail to communicate their real feelings and thoughts in time. One can have a functional network here although this is still hard for colored people; but, it is exceptionally hard to find real and trustworthy friends.

All this commentary excludes those Canadians who are not like what I have described above. Funny! I am left explaining so many things here when others are just saying the exact same thing. But, racism works like this: it forces you to explain things. As I write this last line, I fully agree with myself that it is not worth living, studying (not only the programs that are offered are not properly aligned with needs of employers but also sometimes one is forced to learn or watch as International students are repeatedly abused in more than one ways), working, or forming a family in Canada. If you still don’t trust what I just told you, read this post by Jimmy Hanks who is a Social Researcher/Analyst; who has lived in Canada for 15 years; and, who has based his article on a social experiment he conducted in Canada. Read “Is it boring living in Canada?

I strongly recommend that you desert CanadaI will attempt to do the same. I really don’t want my (future) children to be fed to prostitution or rape (article 1, article 2). I have learned over time that chances of escaping rape is actually low in Canada! Jimmy Hanks discusses several other problems that are offered by Canada, “Is it a good idea to immigrate to Canada?” Don’t sit there and listen to success stories, which are actually rare. Canadians live in denial and a lot of them are mentally ill. Its strongly possible that you are listening to a lie when you are listening to a success story. I once came across a Canadian man who had gotten filthy rich by working in Canada but who was so harshly abused by his employers that he later became mentally ill. Seriously! Some success stories are like that. So get out before its too late!

Lastly, I must remind you that I am an Empath ENFP who loves interacting with people. If I am feeling like I and those who are concerned need to desert Canada, then this is REALLY BIG NEWS. One core issue that is stimulating the rest of the relevant issues is Narcissism. According to article, Does a narcissism epidemic exist in modern western societies? Comparing narcissism and self-esteem in East and West Germany narcissism in individualistic culturesreferred to as “narcissism epidemic”—is higher than in collectivistic (holistic) cultures. This explains why Canada and America have higher rates of suicide than Pakistan. I know that Pakistan is dangerous for women but even then the suicide rate is lower than the ones for America and Canada. According to World Population Review, suicide rate in America is 15.3, in Canada is 12.5, and in Pakistan is 2.9.

Its funny to see how this is happening inside a modern and diverse society like Canada! Anyways, I cannot think any further. I must learn coping strategies about how not to feel overwhelmed before finalizing my next steps. You should do this too! Its important that you make an aware and free decision that is good for you and your loved ones. Take small steps at a time. For example, send your older children to study and work overseas; and, then leave when they are ready to sponsor you. I am sure if you chose a holistic or even a less racist culture, then you will be very happy and content with whatever life offers you.

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Vision of Citizens Who Were Wearing Shalwar Qameez Being Abused By Cops

I had a horrible vision today. I do not know if this is just a playback of my memory or if some sort of incidence is supposed to take place. I saw men—including younger menbeing taken away by cops/army men from their homes or workplaces. I do not fully know where this took place; but, I did see a parking place. Men were wearing the traditional Pakistani clothes, Shalwar Qameez. Lots of them were being picked up! Some women were taken too. I feel they were innocent because they did not knew why they were being taken away; and, some of them were very keen about confronting whoever was kidnapping them. The kidnappers were dressed in clothes worn by officials, perhaps they were cops or army personnel. I think I saw a large tank or a van that was there to block movement. Captives talked to each other openly in their language since they had somehow become used to this entire routine. They were not afraid though! I could not tell which country this was happening in! Perhaps, this is because I am more into observing human behavior or maybe its due to the fact that abuse of honest folks is becoming a norm nowadays. This is all I recall of this particular dream. I woke up soon afterwards and started my day.

I started dissecting this dream after writing the above paragraph. One thing that kept popping up was the lack of fear exhibited by the captives. I am a very creative person; I clearly see that fear is linked to creativity.  Fear haunts me when I write or engage in a psychic phenomenon. Fear is there because it creates the rest of the things! Fear is an indication of what one does not know, which is why fear can give rise to other emotions like hatred when left unguarded. For example, read about the second woman from one of my dreams that I had in April 2019. Read blog post, “Young Female Spirits Have Been Haunting Me“. I actually met this woman in December 2019. She is much older than the female spirit who appeared in my dream; but, interestingly her attitude is very young. And, she asked me to complete a task for herI did what she requested because such acts are considered charity in Islam. I have been struggling a lot to help her out; and, my friends and acquaintances whom I approached for assistance know this. My fear shows in this dream too. In this dream snippet, I am resting in my bed, which symbolizes my fear of being fatigued.

My analysis of this new dream of mine is that the captives are actually very strong people. I understood this well when these dream characters (captives) did not become afraid despite being misused so grossly. Like the rest of the emotions and behaviour, courage, and intelligence come after fear. This is why I strongly feel it is the captors who are under trouble!

Currently, India is after the Kashmiris who also wear something similar to the Pakistani Shalwar Qameezits called Pheran. India has also passed a Citizenship Amendment Bill, which is known as anti-Muslim law. I can’t be sure where exactly the dream I saw took place, which is why I need to bring up this next concept. Usually, genocide does not just take place; it is created slowly over time. What is happening in places where Muslims are being abused and prosecutedlike India, China, and Palestine—is actually the start of a much larger holocaust. Thus, this dream could be an older memory or a vision of something extreme that is supposed to happen in the future.

Added: Feb 13, 2020

This post was published on Jan 22, 2020. Today, I found another article that was published on Feb 07, 2020. Read “CAA: Protestors Forced Into Hiding, As UP Police Puts Bounty On Their Heads”. It discusses how peaceful protestors who were protesting India’s anti-Muslim law and condemning the CAA were taken by the police and had a bounty put on their heads even after some of them escaped from the protest site. This article specifically states that most of the people who were arrested and tortured are Muslim; lastly, it offers a significant finding that even children are being taken from their homes. So it is strongly possible that this incidence was what my vision was offering me.

Message to Human Rights Activists

Lucid dreams are considered training groundsI can even learn martial arts through dreams. Perhaps, my soul is helping me train so that I may relate well to others’ suffering. Another explanation is that the dreams are foretelling something big! Women play a critical role in creating peace. Since I am a Muslim woman, it makes sense that my psyche is allowing me to have such dreams. I had a couple of other dreams where I played the role or attempted to play the role of a peacemaker. Read “Lucid Dreams suggest that women should be leaders in peacebuilding“. The dreams are actually suggesting that there is a strong need for the women to be involved in preventing such massacres. Lastly, these dreams are taking place because I am preoccupied with learning about Human Rights related issues. Lucid dreaming allows me to scan any given area and visualize the futureI believe limitation in scanning is due to limitations in what I am actually interested in. I strongly recommend that other Human Rights activists also learn how to utilize lucid dreaming—it pays to get hints about what is about to happen.

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