I Think Like A Cop

I have a severe history of abuse; but, I have become a Women Rights advocate. I have learned how to get women out of trouble and to identify those who are stuck. I have met all these women in real life; some of these women are very smart and some their memories have been removed so that they may shift into a different person.

I like the fact that when under pressure, I think like a cop. My writing ability overlaps with this facility. Read “7 Ways Police Work Made Me a Better Writer“.  Once I sat in the car of a stalker along with a victim. I pretended to be friends so that I may figure out how he behaves. This ended well and safely. The rest of the details I cannot share due to confidentiality. But, this should give you an idea that I will venture in the uncomfortable zone. For instance, revealing certain information about myself online is pretty easy for me because it would make the abusers feel uncomfortable. I know from experience that I have gained while working with nice and normal men is that only abusers feel uncomfortable about disclosure.

Obviously, protecting women is a challenging task; but, by now I know how to get the women out of trouble. I have created this guide to help women nail abusers since abused women cannot do this properly without written aid. Read my blog post “Regeneration“.

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I Love Hair Accessories That Can Accentuate My Head And Face

I love hair accessories that accentuate my head and face. I usually don’t put too many things on my hair: so far, I have only used different kinds of hair bands, hair clips,  fancy hair pins, and bindi.

Out of all hair accessories, bindi is my favourite because it brings out the shape of my head.

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I took the picture below at a Gala that I attended quite some while ago. I edited this pic twice in Photo Editor Pro; and, I added once a larger rose and then a smaller one. My face somehow feels different with each rose although it’s the same rose that has been sized differently for each edit.

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I find this potential as one of the most alluring of my features.

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How God Creates Rejections To Offer Something Better

This has just happened to me recently. I was trying to get a part-time job as a server in a restaurant because I was planning to volunteer to learn Event Planning—I found about this opportunity some weeks before the restaurant actually opened. I had another part-time position in Events so I was not worried about acquiring another relevant job. Anyways, I signed a contract with the restaurant; but, I was asked to leave after 3 hours of training. I believe this is due to issues at their end—I mean they have not even seen me work yet. I felt a bit angry after this; but, I decided to manage this situation slowly. 

Thus, some days passed worrying about and implementing my next steps. And, then I was stunned by a surprise! Someone else from the Events industry connected with me and offered me another part-time position. I had no idea that God had this all planned. Look! all  my carefully planned moves were nullified because God wanted this for me. I had not talked in detail with this other Events team that I was still looking for another position. If my training for the server position had gone as planned; I wouldn’t have been able to accept this other position that was just discussed by a team member yesterday.

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Jhansi Ki Rani Is A Rajput Just Like Me

I like my Indian lineage; and, I love the fact that I am a Rajput. My ancestors left India during the division of the Indo-Pak subcontinent. I have the blood of real Knights! I have heard from my parents that one of my ancestors fought against the Nazis in World War II; and that he was captured and left alive in the jail simply because he was a Medical Doctor. He was awarded Sword of Honour by his country for his efforts. Read more in blog post, “My Lineage: I am Rajput“.

Rajputian women are very strong-willed and resilient, which is what I like about myself. Jhansi ki Rani (Lakshmibai) was an Indian Rajput who led the resistance against British. Read “Legendary Rajput Queens”. I just watched the entire movie, “Manikarnika – The Queen Of Jhansi” (video 1, video 2, video 3, video 4). When I saw the female protagonist fight in this movie, I knew that she was using the arts of war that were similar to ones used by ancient Rajputs. She fought the British because she wanted to free her people. She was referred by the British as the “A man among mutineers”; and, she was considered one of their most dangerous (significant) enemies. How admirable! She started the entire resistance that finally pushed the British out of the Indo-Pak subcontinent. The British lead in a very cruel manner, which is why both the Hindus and the Muslims were united against the British at that time. Jhansi Ki Rani was killed during the Battle of Gwalior against the British when she was 23 or 29. I feel that she is a true hero and a martyr!

Similarities between Jhansi Ki Rani and myself are striking.

  • I can play the role of a Crime Stopper simply by using lucid dreams; and, this Queen uses her sword to protect the vulnerable.
  • I can use poetry and creative writing to add resistance that is required for social change and justice.
  • She is not there to bow to her abusers neither am I.
  • Just like me, she defends the needy. Check out “Forgotten Femmes”, which is a Facebook page that I run to protect the abused women.
  • She organized a team of female warriors who fought alongside her; and, I am organizing a team of women who will know how to protect other women.
  • She is physically and mentally strong. I was very injured and medicated when I completed an entire program at Algonquin College.
  • Both of us have some loyal friends who tend to tail and protect us even during very difficult times.
  • Rani was very amusing and spirited and as such was referred to as “Chabbili”, which means “playful; I am also high-spirited and playful, which is why my close friends and well-meaning acquaintances like me more.
  • We are both legends. I just know that I will become a legend among those who seek knowledge and literature.

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Lucid Dreamers Have Better Metacognition

Around a year ago, I met a local artist who loved to draw and paint. She showed me several of her lovely pieces. But, I ended up picking one of her incomplete works—she gave it to me for free since it was unfinished. Here is a photo of that painting. IMG_3940

She asked me why I liked this one; and, I frankly told her that I loved it more than the rest because the colors made me feel peaceful. This is an example of metacognition; i.e. thinking of thinking.

I think I like it.

I think about why I like it.

I know I like it because I feel peaceful by looking at it.

Later, when I checked out the article, “7 realxing colors and how they affect your mood“, I found out that yellow, green, and violet colors are known to relax the viewers.

According to the article, “Lucid dreams and metacognition: Awareness of thinking; awareness of dreaming“, lucid dreamers have larger brain areas that are dedicated to self-reflection or metacognition.

What’s funnier is that I know that you know that I am exceptional. That’s what the article “Lucid Dreamers Know They Have Bigger Brains and More Self Reflection. And They Know that You Know” states.

I love lucid dreaming; and, I like the fact that it is something that can be learned over time. The best part about this ability is that it allows me to derive pleasure and satisfaction from very insignificant things as well, such as this painting.

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ENFP Personalities Are Considered Champions Because They Struggle With Dilemmas

As an ENFP, I have experienced many dilemmas throughout my life and at different levels. These dilemmas are built inside me due to the nature of my mind and personality.  One fundamental dilemma that I struggle with on daily basis is as follows:

As an ENFP, I believe in social justice. I use poetry to enter this struggle. During my spare time, my creative mind requires a daily dose of music, lyrics, and dance. Thus, I watch interesting music videos and engage in dancing. However, listening to audios and dancing can be both pretty stressful. It can temporarily break the relaxed mental state that is needed to enter lucid dreams. Since I cannot exist without aforementioned forms of arts, I sometimes allow for an epic phenomenon like lucid dreams to not take place. Then I have to give up on this fun stuff and adopt the mental and physical states required to dream properly. I can feel genuinely novel pain while I perform these activities, since I cannot perceive myself as a complete human being without any of these conflicting states. This helps me become better in the future since changes only cause the elements of any given system to eventually attain congruence.

Thus you can see that the ability to notice and realize a dilemma is one of the most basic ability of the ENFP personalities. Dilemmas play a critical role in achieving social justice. For instance, whistleblower Edward Snowden faced an ethical dilemma when he chose to leak some information from the American government to the journalists. The dilemma was simple: He vowed to protect the information presented after he was hired; and, he vowed to protect the rights of the citizens especially the vulnerable. So now he is being hunted because he quickly saw this dilemma and chose a course of action. This is exactly why ENFPs are considered leaders who can create personal and social change.

One of my siblings correctly labels me as a “hurricane” or “storm”. The daily chaos and peace felt within is really at that level. Interestingly a hurricane/storm has an eye; and, I have a third eye that opens during lucid encounters. LOL!

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Traits of Heroes and Telepathic/Indigo Children That I Exhibit

Telepathic/Indigo Children are heroes but slightly different than the rest of the heroes. Here are some traits that I have seen in myself that remind me that I am a little different than traditional heroes but still a hero.

Just like a hero, I exhibit Passion, Leadership, Courage, Drive, Integrity, Sensitivity, Honesty, Resilience, Confidence, Ability to Motivate Others, Patience, Humor,   Selflessness, Positivity, Care, Determination, and Humility. You should familiarize yourself with this list of traits of heroes because its easy to think of a hero as an average joe.

As a Telepath and Lucid Dreamer, I have a tendency to wander and feel lost since doing so helps me learn better; have a high expectation of others since this is required to build trust for telepathic communication; have shifting priorities owing to the need to learn many things as soon as possible; and, I can easily get frustrated with societies and authorities that follow existing norms because I exhibit out of box mental phenomena. Read “13 Common Traits Of An Indigo Child“.

If you read the above properly, you can nail me as both “not a hero” and a “hero”. But the trick here is that a hero can be read as both and not many people are aware of this reality. I know that all heroes have a desire to appear just like average joes. That is why a real hero gives you a feel like you can walk over him/her. And, there are more methodical and deeper heroes that let you walk over him/her so that they may learn to react better over time. Another moment of weakness is when a hero analyzes a dilemma just before making a decision—its easy to laugh at them or feel confused about them during such tough times. This is why I feel that one should familiarize oneself with the traits of heroes and telepathic/indigo children because you don’t really want to be mistaken when you see them in real life.

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How ENFPs Like Me Survive Adulthood

Everybody goes through a phase called “Emerging Adulthood” where they are learning how to be adults and exploring a lot to figure out what exactly they want to do as adults. I have been going through this as well although I am finding my emerging adulthood to be very complicated, thorough, and incomplete. The reason it feels like this is because I demand details, some of which I store for writing purposes; and, at the same time, I leave many open endings on purpose.

For example, when I research things for fun, I don’t research fully; instead, I research a lot of stuff and leave more open questions to explore later. This method of learning allows me to become an “idea bomb“, which are known to thrive well because they form the basis of knowledge that individuals and good companies may possess. Another noteworthy instance is when I decided to explore the self instead of focusing on connecting with people. To improve my writing and poetry, I imagined parallel playing with one of my heroes who is a distinguished American poet and writer; since I liked my hero and hero’s work a lot, I took this gaming one step ahead by indulging in creative Lucid Dreams. For some years, I shut myself away from other people but kept just a few close friends—I am a very genuine person. I didn’t even bothered to focus well on finding a significant other simply because I was too taken by my lucid dreaming—documenting these dreams isn’t an easy task. Read “Imaginary Parallel Play With Your Heroes“.

In conclusion, this is how my mind never grows old. Observing and experiencing different layers of ENFP personality enfold has proven to be a mighty challenge—its like going totally blank every now and then and feeling like a child. Read “Experiencing Layers Of My ENFP Personality Through Dreams“.

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Celebrating Eid-ul-Fitr 2019

I am celebrating Eid-ul-Fitr today with some of my family members. We all dressed up today because we wanted to take pictures of the family with my one year old niece Myah. The breakfast included smooth sweet Saviya that were drenched in milk; I ate these with a French Vanilla. Soon some of our relatives came home with Indian sweets. So I tried a couple of these scrumptious delights as well.

I was very excited today because spending quality time with my family matters a lot to me. The best part was helping my sister-in-law get ready for this event. Since she  is Canadian, she has never worn Pakistani jewelry and bangles before. So I rummaged through my and my sister’s selections and found her something exciting to wear. Her necklace was made up of beige beads and there were golden charms dispersed through the beads; the rather long earrings had three golden charms and some material that had the same color as the beads. She wore some white and golden bangles on one hand; and, a red golden set in the other.

I wore a pink dress that has golden embroidery in the front and the back; this dress is traditionally referred to as Shalwar Qameez; the Dupatta—its like a really long scarf—also has golden embroidery. I wore golden bangle set on one arm and a large Indian Kara—really wide bangle—on the other arm. The golden bangle set had white and golden bangles; and, the wide and thin bangles were mixed to make the set appear balanced. The Indian Kara was also golden in color and had a very nice colored shape in the centre; the shape was similar to a flower; surprisingly, this shape splits into two parts when one opens the Kara in order to wear it. The bindi—jewelry for the forehead—was the prettiest one. I had to use pins to pin it to my hair; funny thing is that I find bindi shockingly lovely because it sits in the center of my forehead.

Lastly, I took some selfies after family photograph session was over. I thought to share these here.

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